Recent Dreams

March 26th, 2008

Over the years God has spoken to me in dreams.  Most often these dreams have offered assurance during difficult times of ministry.  Sometimes these dreams show me something that I must address.  Sometimes, of course a dream is just a dream.  Discerning when a dream is from God and when it is the nocturnal churn of an unconscious mind is an interesting task.  I am somewhat conservative in my approach.  When I have received dreams of assurance I act on them by standing fast.  When the dream shows me a problem, whether it is of God or something arising from my unconsciousness I take a serious look at it, but do not make big changes on the basis of the dream alone.  However, I do then take up the issue as a prayer focus. Recently I have had two dreams with similar themes.

In the first dream I am climbing a very narrow staircase to the second floor in a house.  On my left is the family room, except that it feels more like a church.  Abruptly the staircase ends at a wall.  There is no way forward.  Now to my left, just over the banister, is a broad staircase rising in the opposite direction that clearly continues upwards.

In the second dream I am driving my sports car through traffic.  The other cars are moving like molasses and wandering from their lanes.  It is easy to weave in and out and quickly move forward.  But the road narrows to a single lane and enters a construction zone. My windshield becomes mud splattered and I can hardly see to continue.  The roadway is increasingly rough and weaves in and about construction (or is it deconstruction). My tension rises with the increased difficulty and danger. I turn a corner and slam on my brakes but cannot stop before bumping into an older car.  I take a closer look at the car.  It was once a beautiful sporty car, but the years had been hard on it.  The owner, an affable fellow, is worried that the repair will cost more than the car is worth.

In both dreams I cannot get to where I am going.  The dreams leave me wondering if I am on the right path.  Have I chosen the right roadway, the right stairway, or do I need to make a change of direction? Or are they just dreams?

The Importance of a Good Fit

February 27th, 2008

10 months ago I began developing a sore right knee. It gradually worsened. In January it became painful. Strangely the pain moved around to different areas of my knee. After one ride I discovered that I was limping and experiencing lancing pain. Walking up and down stairs hurt. I became worried. I stopped cycling for nearly a month to allow my knee to recover. I gained a few pounds. A few weeks ago I tried again and the pain was still there. Today I tried again. I felt fat, weak, and discouraged.

Then I noticed that my right heel was ever so slightly out of parallel with the crank arms. I consciously pulled it in a bit. The pain lessened but was still present. I couldn’t get out of the saddle and climb without experiencing lancing pain.

Then I noticed that my knees seemed a tiny bit forward over the spindles. I moved further back on my saddle. The pain began fading. I climbed two hills while seated. No pain. I pressed harder. No pain. I rode down Los Gatos blvd past the high school, came to a short hill, stood up, and hammered my way up. No pain. I felt strong. My joy returned. I rode home on Los Gatos Almaden Road and sustained a speed of 25 mph. No pain, but a touch sore.

When I got home I changed the position of my saddle by moving it back about a sixteenth of an inch. I adjusted the cleat on my shoe by a similar amount. Perfect. My knee is still a bit sore, but now I know that it will quickly heal. Isn’t it amazing what a large impact a small change can make.

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January 2nd, 2008

Well, 2007 has rolled to a close so I thought I would blog on my cycling stats.  First, I’m pleased to report that I’ve now lost 30 pounds since I started cycling semi seriously a little over 2 years ago.  I lost 15 pounds the first year and 15 the second.  I hope to lose another ten pounds over the next year. I could have lost it faster, but I chose to not change my diet.  In fact I have now changed what I eat.  In particular I’m better about eating breakfast.  Oatmeal. 

In 2007 my cycling computer tells me I rode 2,802 miles with an average speed of 14.2 mph.  I achieved a max speed of 42.1 mph (very fun).  I burned up 218,273 calories, had an average heart rate of 144 bpm, a max heart rate of 197 bpm and climbed 178,738 feet.  I also did some riding I didn’t record, like riding to church and the grocery store.  Strangely, August was the month I rode the fewest miles. 

The hardest ride I had was the tour de cure.  This ride was 78 miles with 7,200 feet of climbing.  My ride time was 6:05.  In 2008 my goal is to do the ride in 5 hours. On the 2007 tour an older guy, who looked like he was in his 70’s, on an ancient bike, effortlessly passed me on the first major climb.  I want to be as fit as he is when I am his age.  Heck, I want to be as fit as he is now!

Cycling is all about incremental growth.  Each ride builds on the benefits accrued on the previous rides.  I now sleep less, have better sustained energy through the day, and am in better shape than any time in the last ten years.  We live in such a beautiful area and cycling is a great way of seeing it. 

Archbishop of Canterbury’s Advent Letter

December 14th, 2007

The Archbishop’s much anticipated Advent letter came out today. In it he explains the nature of the Anglican Communion. It is not a hierarchy.

“The Communion is a voluntary association of provinces and dioceses; and so its unity depends not on a canon law that can be enforced but on the ability of each part of the family to recognise that other local churches have received the same faith from the apostles and are faithfully holding to it in loyalty to the One Lord incarnate who speaks in Scripture and bestows his grace in the sacraments.”

We are a family. We are a voluntary association.

“we have no single central executive authority”

We have great difficulty resolving this sort of crisis because

“At the moment, the question of ‘who speaks for the Communion?’ is surrounded by much unclarity and urgently needs resolution”

This is one of the important questions that Lambeth 2008 must answer. The bigger issues at Lambeth will be the Anglican Covenant that formalizes the tradition of what it means to be Anglican and the status of The Episcopal Church within the Anglican Communion.

Archbishop Williams writes that a full relationship of Communion involves three common acknowledgments:

  1. that we stand under the authority of Scripture as ‘the rule and ultimate standard of faith’…Understanding the Bible is not a private process or something to be undertaken in isolation by one part of the family. Radical change in the way we read cannot be determined by one group or tradition alone.
  2. an authentic ministry of Word and Sacrament. We remain in communion because we trust that the Lord who has called us by his Word also calls men and women in other contexts and raises up for them as for us a ministry which can be recognised as performing the same tasks – of teaching and pastoral care and admonition, of assembling God’s people for worship, above all at the Holy Communion.
  3. that the first and great priority of each local Christian community is to communicate the Good News. When we are able to recognise biblical faithfulness and authentic ministry in one another, the relation of communion pledges us to support each other’s efforts to win people for Christ and to serve the world in his Name.

He goes on to make very clear that this crisis is not about sex. It is about fidelity

“to Scripture and the moral tradition of the wider Church, with respect to blessing and sanctioning in the name of the Church certain personal decisions about what constitutes an acceptable Christian lifestyle.”

When I wrote The Anglican River I was charitable towards the General Convention when I wrote that the blessing of same sex unions was approved before consensus on the Scriptural basis was achieved. Archbishop Williams is a bit more direct. (emphasis mine)

This is why the episcopal ordination of a person in a same-sex union or a claim to the freedom to make liturgical declarations about the character of same-sex unions inevitably raises the question of whether a local church is still fully recognisable within the one family of practice and reflection. Where one part of the family makes a decisive move that plainly implies a new understanding of Scripture that has not been received and agreed by the wider Church, it is not surprising that others find a problem in knowing how far they are still speaking the same language. And because what one local church says is naturally taken as representative of what others might say, we have the painful situation of some communities being associated with views and actions which they deplore or which they simply have not considered.

Where such a situation arises, it becomes important to clarify that the Communion as a whole is not committed to receiving the new interpretation and that there must be ways in which others can appropriately distance themselves from decisions and policies which they have not agreed. This is important in our relations with our own local contexts and equally in our ecumenical (and interfaith) encounters, to avoid confusion and deep misunderstanding.

The letter contains many more important points and thoughts, all of which are of import. I encourage you to read it several times.

It is ironic that The Episcopal Church is arguing before the courts that we are a hierarchy when it is only the fact that we are not that is keeping it within the Anglican Communion.

This letter effectively puts the burden of resolution of the crisis on the Lambeth Conference. The question on many people’s minds is “will the Lambeth Conference resolve this next summer, or will we need to wait for the next General Convention in 2009, or the next Lambeth Conference in 2018? Will this ever end?” In response I ask another question: “Is Anglicanism, with its structures that rely on a commitment to interdependence and so model Christ’s command to ‘Love one another’, worth saving?”

Will the Lambeth Conference act in such a way to bring resolution to this crisis? If the bishops attending are half as tired of this as we are I think so. The thought of acting in such a way that leaves the crisis unresolved for another 10 years is too much to bear.

A Torn Communion Unraveling.

December 11th, 2007

Last weekend the Diocese of San Joachin voted in convention to secede from the Episcopal Church. This action requires votes in successive conventions. They took their first vote last year. Their decision this past weekend was expected, passed with a large majority, and will be remembered as a pivotal moment in the unraveling of the Episcopal Church. Statistically, San Joachin is a very small part of the Episcopal Church, but their withdrawal is a symbolic and defining moment in the crisis gripping the Episcopal Church. Other dioceses are poised to follow, and more are sympathetic. The last time a diocese withdrew from The Episcopal Church was the Civil War.

Bishop Schofield also made it very clear that any parish may choose to remain in the Episcopal Church with their property so long as they do not owe the diocese any money. There will be no lawsuits against those who choose to leave San Joachin. Four parishes have said that this is their preference.

What surprised me most about the events of the past weekend was the almost understated response from the national church. San Joachin’s decision was long expected and unsurprising. I expect contingency plans were in place and drafts of press releases drawn up months ago. Sunday was the big media day for the story. I’m sure the press was looking for much more than they received. I was also surprised by the near silence of the Primates, and less surprised by the continued silence of the Archbishop of Canterbury.

I wonder if all this silence has anything to do with the expected Advent Letter from the Archbishop of Canterbury. This is the letter he has said will contain his thoughts on the response made to the Primate’s Dar es Salaam statement by the House of Bishop’s of The Episcopal Church. There are only 13 days left in Advent. Are we simply enjoying a sort of “cease fire” as we approach the Holy Days of Christmas, or is there something more going on? Could it be that the Primates are hammering out a resolution?

So where does this leave us? Waiting. Advent is after all a season of waiting. Our Advent prayer is for Jesus to come again. This is not an easy wait, but then Jesus never promised his disciples an easy time of waiting. Still, like all of us in this crisis I am weary of waiting. But wait we must, at least for a little while longer. Come Lord Jesus Come. Amen.